
Expectations are a dangerous thing.
Supposedly, there was to be a meteor shower this morning at 2. Being a sucker for celestial events, I decided to realize my 15-year goal and wake up at a ridiculous hour to watch the show. I went to bed extra early, set the alarm and double checked it, and fell asleep dreaming of the forthcoming awesomness. At 1:40, I started hitting snooze- finally talking myself into rousing. “Liz. This is your pep talk. GET OUT OF BED. It’s a meteor shower! Nature’s own fireworks show! You must rise. Make coffee. Fulfil your dreams!” So I get up, make coffee, and go outside.
It’s fucking cloudy. And now I think it’s even raining. Either that or it’s the sound of my tears hitting the keyboard. Tears streaming for sleep lost.
I know what you’re thinking, “A simple check of the local forecast would have prevented this.” I thought of that, but was too busy making preparations for my early rise to actually watch the local news. And by 10, I was asleep with a warm smile on my face, dreaming of the firey beauty to come. This SUCKS. And now I am awake. And that is definitely rain.
In other news, I thought I had quit smoking. It was quite a feeling of accomplishment. I hadn’t yet reached the point where I chastised those who did smoke, but I was getting close. That is, apparently, how you really know that you have quit. You see, until you become a raging asshole about smoking and smokers, you’re still on the edge of returning to your sinful ways. I was getting close to using quips like, “Look at Joe Cool over there with his smoke dangling from his lips,” and “God. This bar is SOOOOO smokey. I wish they would ban smoking in public places! (disgusted grunt).” But then I started drinking and there is no road to hell as well paved as the road littered with beer cans. I could turn it around right now if I set my mind to it. I could just not smoke before the nicotine totally grabbed my system again and took hold. But I do love it so.
I once had a guy say to me, “You’d better put those cigarettes down before you’re not so good of a catch anymore.” WOW. That statement will really make you stop and reflect on what’s important. He thought I was a good catch!
I’ll smoke to that…
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ah a killer rant inside a killer rant website! well done sir
in the odd chance that aliens haven’t kidnapped you and killer, i wanted to stop by and wish you all a good holiday season. if you can not only make it out to the other side still breathing and manage to have a little bit of fun in the process then you’ve done well.
i’m up entirely too early and damned if there isn’t the cricut infomercial on. of course i thought of you. and wondered if you are using that damn awesome thing!
miss you and killer. hope all is well with you both.
Great blog - at times you make it sound all exciting and I wish I could be there.I thoroughly enjoyed on reading the article.I think , it should be a great trip for you.
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Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
yay, you are back!!
i’m one of those reformed smokers, BUT in my defense, i hated my own side stream smoke as much as the nasty shit of others. wouldn’t smoke in my own place, nor would i dare smoke in my own car. yep, i was militant about it, even though i loved (and i do mean LOVED) feeling that thick hit rushing into my lungs.
somehow i managed to quit. i will defend your right to smoke with a passion though. just please see to it that i don’t have to sit down wind.
i’m a sucker for a good meteor shower myself, although nothing around here compares to the sky in hawaii (plenty of places with no street lights, no billboards, no tall buildings lit up all night). my uncle lives down there. i’m thinking we need a vacation...during a meteor shower…
By hello haha narf on 2008 08 12
Drag. I won’t get up early, even for a meteor shower. The only way I’d see one at two am is if I stayed up that late, and then I’d probably be too drunk to appreciate it.
By churlita on 2008 08 12
Hello,
Thanks for the Yay! I can’t imagine that you were a heavy smoker, with all of those restrictions. If I could smoke like that I’m not sure I’d try to quit! I would love to be a twice a day smoker and maybe total 4 cigarettes a day. I’d also like to keep my 4 cigarettes as a secret. Tell NO ONE at work that I was leading this double life and slipping away for my fix. Man. I must need some excitment if that sounds ‘cool’.
I will meet you in Hawaii! I’m a very nice house guest and always make my bed. Your uncle would love me. I can’t imagine a better trip!
Churlita,
‘DRAG’ is spot on! I wish I were drunk now.
By liz on 2008 08 12
i’ve said it for years, peanut butter and jelly, toast and jam, beer and cigarettes. they are yin and yang partners and the ~only~ reason i haven’t started back up again is that i rarely drink anymore and i only drink at home. i also have a very strict personal policy about not driving if i’ve had even a single drink and i’ll be damned if i ask j to go buy a pack for me even though he’s been smoking again for about two or three months now.
sorry about the meteor shower, that sucks missing out on that. (i missed it too.)
By heather on 2008 08 12
Heather,
Congratulations on your successful bid at quitting. I know if I totally quit drinking I would be LESS likely to want a cigarette and less likely to actually go and buy a pack. I could stand to stop ingesting the empty calories of beer and other alcohol, but I do so love it!
By liz on 2008 08 12
I seem to remember SOMEONE telling you “NOT TO BUY THOSE SMOKES”.
I also seem to recall someone being forced to stop at a “special” store that sells your freakishly non-manly brand of smokes on the way to your house to support this resurgence of cancer seeking behavior.
I think I have developed cancer on my pride from buying those.
By Killer on 2008 08 12
Killer,
You did your part. I know that you hate that I smoke and you hate supporting my smoking in any way. But all the disgust in the world doesn’t make me want one less! You know as well as I do that refusing to stop and pick up a pack of cigs will only result in harsh words being spoken and things being broken. Thanks for caring, but thanks more for getting those cigarettes.
If it makes you feel better, I have NOT gone out and bought a pack today, even though I had ample opportunity to do so. One day down…
By liz on 2008 08 12
I lived with Jody (chain smoker) for 2 years, but didn’t start smoking until I lived with Joe (4 years?). I was one of those casual smokers that could live off of a pack a week. Envy me!
I stopped altogether when I had a baby, and I imagine you’d probably do the same, just to keep up the appearances of being a good mother. Or at least ONLY smoke when you go out drinking, which would be never because now you have a kid. I envy you!
So there you go. Have a baby to give up your smoking habit.
I’m not one of those guys that chastises people for smoking, but I have realized 3 things since quitting:
1. The bars downtown which serve food are non-smoking. I enjoy my time in those bars now more than I did the smoking bars when I smoked.
2. If you do manage to quit, on the offchance that you do light up after drinking a few, you’ll find yourself fall-down drunk very quickly. I’m not sure what magic is at play here.
3. When you sit back and look at it, chain smokers are kind of silly. Eat a meal - light up. Get in the car - light up. Take a walk - light up. Open a beer - light up. Climb off of her - light up. It becomes more habit than enjoyment.
By Steven on 2008 08 13
Steven,
I have considered having a baby to get the time off work, but have not thought about having one to give up smoking. You’re right. It’s all about looking like a caring mother. I like the way you think… slightly screwed up, but yet strangely on target…
By liz on 2008 08 13
don’t get me wrong liz. i’m still a smoker. i’ve just been out of smokes for a few months now and keep putting off buying a pack till tomorrow. i’ve always been able to go a day without smoking. the only difference now is that i’ve had quite a few days strung together. i will always be a smoker. i just haven’t had one today. (or yesterday, or the day before, or the day before that, or the day before that...)
as for the whole, have a kid so that you can look like a caring mother for not smoking bit.
hard to look like a caring mother when the hand that used to hold your calming smoke in it is now pulling the hair from your head in an effort not to push your daughter’s hair behind her ears for the eight thousandth time in an hour.
who knows though, it might work for you.
don’t even think about never drinking. that’s a surefire way to go ‘lock her up’ insane. gotta have alcohol as the occasional excuse to tell random people off for minor infractions and to commune with your inner self.
By heather on 2008 08 13
But then I started drinking and there is no road to hell as well paved as the road littered with beer cans.
Truer words have never been spoken.
I want in on Hawaii. I am also a very good houseguest. I cook and I like cleaning.
Killer! You’re alive! How’s the yogurt biz?
By Gwen on 2008 08 14
gwen -
you would HAVE to join us on our hawaiian adventure. wouldn’t be the same without you!! uncle mark owns a little deli / bistro...with six beers on draft. two for each of us ladies!!!
wait, who am i callin ladies?
By hello haha narf on 2008 08 14
Hello-
HA!
(as in HAwaii)?
By liz on 2008 08 15
In Sweden, a couple gets 15 months paid vacation when they have a baby. They don’t even have to be married.
Of course, the country’s going broke, but which of us isn’t?
By Steven on 2008 08 15
This is what I get for not checking in for a while; You’re coming here?! (Hawaii)
Be sure to drop me a line. We can do dinner or BBQ or drive around the island or something more social than sitting at this keyboard when its beautiful outside....
By rebturtle on 2008 08 22